-.- School & Life -.-

Posting from a different piece of land...

2007-11-17T16:08:00.000+08:00

Okaaay... I'm happy to be here... and knowing that I'll cry when me, myself read this in the future... in Malaysia... so, just a happiiiiiieeeee,message, to the future me... oh... don't cry... they'll visit... time will go as fast as it should be...like how 2007 is.... soon, I'll be entering form 2... oh... okay...mr.Arasu... T-T and guess what?? I'll be arriving late for the new education year...(or whatever u say..) JUST ONE DAY... not one week like std.4.... that's because my realative passed away in a tragic way... don't wanna say about it.... family secret... clue~ her death were reported in the news on media cuz the police thought it was murder.... (cough..) NO WAY... IT"S NOT... It's a simple heart attack.... ^-^ relax~~~~~ Okay.. I wanna browse something else...and broke the password to my msn.... T-T yes... I forgot...

9 more days... Mum's friend, Aunty Emi offered to take us to the airport...?!

2007-10-26T00:10:00.001+08:00

Wow... less then ten days... I'm going back!! But.. two months will be.. like soooo...fast. And then, I will be crying again... when the new year begins... sobs... Now, I'll be smilling... and sooo fun... excited.. I just couldn't wait for the day... hah... and... yeah... mum's friend is taking us to the airport...OMG...oh, yeah... tomorrow will be my final day of school... I'll collect my report card.. and then... say "c ya next year" to my friends...

'Good-bye Cruel World' is the only solution...

2007-10-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

How to get all the plagues off my life...?? DIE... DEATH... HELL.... DEATH.... DIE.... Yeah... suicide.. something fast and unfelt... that's how i get all teh fuckers off my life...

Miserable... tired... gloomy...I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING!!

2007-10-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

there's no lesson anyway... why can't i just stay and sleep...??! and play games..Of course... while waiting for the 3rd of November... I know.. now I'll be happy... and then sad... when it's time to go back here and study.. I'm feeling miserable... tired... drowsy....whatever... i can't look at the skool anymore!!! so... only 3 days... mum's busy anyway... and I must help my mom pack up... etc. etc. i'll try finish the kh project by wednesday... then i'll sleep... and pack up... yes.

Great... I've got no time now, I've got to be on a sacred heart diet...

2007-10-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

I'll be meeting my family on the 3rd of November... and today is already the 20th of October... I shouldn't play the pc too much and swim less.... ugh. This sacred heart diet is usually for people who is going for surgery and needs to lose weight, quickly, it promised a 7 day eating plan which will reduce 10-17lbs.(22.0 kg - 37.4kg) I'm on it... which means... no school food. I doubt this is going to work out... but I'm desperate, and I'm willing to try this... It's not that I will lose anything trying this... ;)

Maybe last post... LAzy Meee~

2007-10-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

Finally.. we can go back to indonesia... like usual... see my doggies... for two days, then take a train to semarang, my mom's hometown... it's gonna take 4hrs+ by train... that's the fastest way from my hometown to my mom's hometown.. there's no flight. Man... that's longer than the trip from KL to Surabaya...!!! But nevermind... as long as I get to go home... and see the cute pooches... I don't feel like coming to school at all... Even though many of them says I missed lot of fun... I don't think playing at school is cool... Your friends are there... but, the freedom is not. I've to star backpacking by...?? Monday.. on the 29th... or maybe... Thursday.. the 1st.. I can't join the drawing competition held by my group... I'm too lazy anyway... I enough sketches and mangas at home... So, as soon as I did everything I'm supposed to do at school... I'll stay at home.. Yes.. .I don't care about the fun... It's more fun at home anyway... ((wink))

I just don't dare... I don't want to... I'm enough burden to them.

2007-10-15T01:23:00.000+08:00

I'm a troublesome kid... Always giving problem to my family... I feel I don't deserve to live... So... any untreated sickness will lead to death, right? So, I'll do that.. I'll pretend I'm okay all the way... That's it.. I'm sorry. Just for a damn ticket I feel heavy... I want to go to my homeland... but my mum wants to go to hers... But, I don't dare to say.

My boring blog... and life. (God exists, and I really feel Him, good for me)

2007-10-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

Ah... so... I've been writting, braces day..blabla... and...blabla days to go. But still, I feel like writting, but also... lazy to do so. But nevermind... let me tell you... this damn thing will be taken off maybe at december next year(2008). So, it's already past 12am, so it's already Eid for the Muslims... which is... also my mother's side family. Since moving to this country... I celebrated (even though I'm a Catholic... in a way, like helping them cook, clean the house...etc. except the slaughtering part... I just can't bear... I'll faint after looking at the blood, and hearing the noises the animals make) with them 3 times... and missed 3 times... because school holidays isn't 'cooperating'. How I wish... I'm there... usually, on a day like tomorrow, my mom, me and my cousins.. and relatives, will visit my Grampa's grave. Ah.. maybe I just can't celebrate with them... but at least, I got to see them... God is here... you just have to believe... Proof? Okay... to my calssmates... remember that Moral paper question? Where they put the question as ' Esprit de Corps' ? I was lost... So I kept thinking and asked for help (from God, i did NOT cheat). And I did it... the answer is 'memungut kekayaan'. Wow... and the other one was... I was very sad... Because of the possibilities I can't go back to my homeland this year... but... guess what? God helped me again.. I prayed, and I get to go home... Okay now, I got to sleep ( even though not sleepy)... but before that.. THANK YOU GOD... for being there to help me... ^_^

Dentist appointment. Sad stories.

2007-10-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

So.. my third..no, second... appointment, since I fixed the thing on... Oh damn... I haven't put that rubber... Will he notice?? Hope not..hope not... My jaw will feel taut after the braces is tightened... and oh yeah... What colour shall I choose next? I thought transparent will look good... but after few weeks.. It turns yellowish... So... I don't know... Blue?? Eww... Pink?? Too... sweet. Erm... yellow? Disgusting. So?? Gold or silver...? Too shiny. Red? Too bright.. So.....I... I don't know. Green?? Ugh... no... It'll look like as if I've got spinach stuck on my braces... absoulutely disgusting...By the way... I tried blue when I first fixed the braces... so... orange? Looks like as if i hadn't brushed my teeth... black?? Not available... White?? It's good... but... if it turns yellow?? T_T Nevermind... Let's go white... If there's no white?? Then.... umm... purple?? No thanks... uh... i don't know!!! Hope Mandy is online... T_T.
Sad stories...
I... I can't go this year... too bad.

Just a pic...

2007-10-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

What happened to the times? Is it over?

2007-09-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

Does being here means I can't spend time with two of my favourites cousins? The last time I spent time with them was 2004... It has been 3 years... I can't spend time with them... I remembered we used to sing songs together, danced on the bed and jumped to lay down, and we'll laugh... Now I hate them... They're always together for one week every year, I'll be the only one left out. I can't tell my parents that I want to go home quick to spend time with them, because my parents hate the duo... The same song is beating my eardrums... My 2 cousins have no internet access and don't know about this blog... I don't know whether they're reading my blog or not ... not even my elder cousin.. i don't think he care. Good-bye to the times...~

Paramnesia....Kit, Me...and some people from goodness knows where...

2007-09-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

I realised that the feelings I thought happened in my dreams and I'm going through it in real life, as a repetition, it don't happen in my dream... It's called paramnesia... or deja vu. I found out that this name came from two Greek words.. para for parallel and mnēmē for memory, got this from wikipedia. Here's a sentence to describe it..;

" The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eeriness", "strangeness", or "weirdness". The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience "genuinely happened" in the past. Déjà vu has been described as "remembering the future". " (wikipedia [deja vu])

I'm not the only one... Kit also experience this... and some other people...

It's his birthday the tomorrow... he's 26...

2007-09-16T00:45:00.000+08:00

Just 'wide-spreading' this wish... to everyone who's turning 26 on the 16th September... HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
Especially to the one guy... ^_^

today is a happy day for me... for some reason... which i don't want to write here...or tell you... you'll see it yourself...
I don't have to say... if you can't figure out, too bad. LoL

Don't ask us why...Look at yourselves first...It's YOUR fault...

2007-09-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

The next time we don't talk to you, always remember that you're the one ignoring us. The next time I don't talk to you, remember that I hate you guys for being something I shouldn't say here... When you said that we're acting like we're no more your friends, remember that you don't want us to be there. So, please, don't ask me, the same question you asked when we don't talk to you... If this is the way you want it to be done...I'll let you have it!!! Don't think that I don't know anything... I know something is hiding behind one of your hearts... Which means, one of you is just pretending.... Don't ever ask me what I mean, don't ask me question only if you need me, I'm not some kind of machine made to answer your f***ing bullshit questions!!! I guess we will never understand the term...Not in this age... You said we're just like strangers to you all, but you all are the one enjoying everything on your own... So, we don't want to be DISTURBANCE to you all... You don't know what I'm like when I really lose my temper. No one knows... not yet... I can be sweet to people who's not like you all... But... If you all treat me this way... This is what you'll receive...

Lonely....Absence makes my heart grow fonder...

2007-09-13T19:54:00.001+08:00

I quarrel with him evertime he's here. But now, imagining he goes somewhere far for 3 months is kinda horrible. *Sigh* Nevermind... as long as he have a good time there. And for some reason, I broke down in class early in the morning... I can't hold it anymore... I felt lonely... I ate my breakfast alone... That's so different... *sigh* I try to think that three months is not that long... So... It's okay, they'll be back soon... But I just can't... When I think again..."Three months...." I'll feel dissapointed...

I want fabulous...~

2007-09-11T21:12:00.000+08:00

Just like one of the HSM 2 soundtrack... I want FABULOUS!!! An absoulute perfection, please... You can say I'm demanding... Yes... I am... I don't think anyone knows who am I... or at least.. how is the 'inner' me... And don't even think of knowing... Hah! Once more... !!! I DEMAND PERFECTION!!!!! (In studies??? Impossible...*haha*)

Nothing to post...

2007-09-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

Just doing my job... posting on this blog... Naaaah... Actually, I'm just bored....

SCHOOL!!!! Final Year Exam... But... sigh

2007-09-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

School exam after PMR... But... I'll be wasting another month... a month and a half actually... I don't want to go to school after I got all my marks and report card... I will call my relatives... And return after I can... Which is... My time is disrupted by the piano lesson... (Sigh). I always wanted to go home... But... Now I think... after spending a long time here, maybe after sometimes... I won't have the time to go back... This will be my home... no more the neighbouring country... After all I did... Dad said if I study hard and score well for the test... I can go back... But now... Even though I score 521 out of 900... Which is the 'good' in our Form 1 standard... (LoL) But, because of piano class...I'm coming back on December... I wasted a month for a once-a-week-stupid-piano class... I loved piano.. and it's not time for me to quit...yet. It will be worthless if I quit now... So I swear I won't... But...I really want to go back... If I go for more than one month... I will have to pay another 185 bux... But Mum...as usual... stingy as ever... She said..."Do you really want to go or not?!" Which means... Do I really want to go to paino class... ask that to myself... What comes out is... CONFUSION... GEt iT?! DARN IT!!! Is this what it takes to be me?! Then.. If I could choose... I won't choose to be me... >.<>.<

I just hate being me...

2007-09-05T10:00:00.000+08:00

I hate being me... I don't know what is so interesting...or what makes my mom suspicious of what I'm looking over the internet... I mean... I just watched a comedy-serial...sort of... show... about the latest issues... Like..political... lifestyle...celebs..and she says she wants to hear too...(I was listening from my earphone) I say.. 'Later'... But she mumbles something I couldn't remember..and pull my earphone from the speakers.... And I got mad... I paused the video... I said "Why wouldn't you watch this on yourself now...??!" And I played with the sleeping Fluffy...(my pet hamster) And then she said "Why are you always so cruel to me??!" And I don't think I need to answer that question... She meddles with what I'm doing...I don't like that... Now she's acting all cold to me... Like I care... She spoilt my mood on my last day of rest... Why don't I just die when I said I want to??! If only I can take everything on my own hands... Wouldn't it be nice??? I don't need counselling... What i need is an END. I will never get what I want anyway... Even though people say if you believe in God and pray hard... everything you wished will come true... I tried that method... What do I get..?? Well... the minor wishes... Like getting good grades for my mid-terms... Haha... Saved me from being nagged by mom... I don't think she deserve to be called a 'mom'. Parents are not as pleasant as the ones you see on tv... at the commercials.... They're NOT. Parents are busy-bodies... I know parents don't agree with me... I don't think mine would ever visit this blog... No one will... So, why don't I just put everthing to personal??! I don't want any unwanted visitors... No one is goig to comment my heart thoughts anyway... They don't care...and they will never, NEVER...EVER care... They've got better blog... SO?! I still love my blog because it never disturb me... NEVER comment on my heart thoughts..That's why... Let me tell you all something... No one is a loyal bestfriend in this world... They'll never be like the one in the movies... Best friends can fight anytime, nothing is forever... My best friend is my dog..Who understands me... and will try to 'soothe' me in anyway... Which sometimes I don't understand... Now you know how it feels... being a girl who loved her pet pooch more than anyone on Earth... yeah, I love her more than anything...ANYTHING..Even more than the guys I said I had a crush on them... My dog is my true best friend... no one is better... There will never be a better people...Not in this world..not until I die...

Braces - Day 51

2007-09-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

*Yawn*... My title is getting boring... Braces - Day... ~ Blablabla... (sigh). Maybe I'll change starting tomorrow... Yeah... If I remembered....

ps: 454 days to go

Braces - Day 47 ~ Lazy to upload the pix...~_~

2007-08-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

Today I felt so sleepy... And I went home early... It's MERDEKA EVE...We say it's merdeka for us too... LoL. Merdeka for us... this way...

I've got more videos...but not much time... this is the best....ENJOY...

ps: 458 days more

Braces - Day 44

2007-08-27T21:18:00.001+08:00

School begins again..but... another 6 days holidays begins from Friday the 31st... YAHOO!!!... Oh..why do it take so long for the pix to show?? Sobs... SIMS SET!!! 2o bux only!!! I surely must have it!! But they don't want to take me to KP... =.= What lar...=.= Ah... since today is the first day of school after the one week holiday, everyone fell asleep during maths time... VERY SLEEPY!!! Even my eyes were drooping... Hope it won't happen again...LoL

Braces - Day 43 ~ Final day holiday...

2007-08-26T22:04:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow... Back to school I go... And I know, none of you will ever guess... but... on this final day... we went to Melaka...pictures...emm..I can't upload it now..cuz I wan to take a picture of my teeth after the first session since I put it on... So.. WAIT....

ps: 462 days more

Day 41 - Ehm....

2007-08-24T22:44:00.001+08:00

So..tomorrow will e my first session with the dentist... after putting on the braces.... Well... I think the people who experienced braces will now the purpose... TIGHTENING. I haven't use the rubber for quite a time... will he notice? I mean the dentist... Okay... dentist is not such a big deal... only the part where I must go alone into the cold room.... My parents said I'm old enough to go by my own... But, still... the room makes my blood churn..Hey, I had my surgery there okay?! I'm like... not fully unconscious, so... I can see the reflection of what they're doing to my gums from the light.... But... that moment, I don't feel afraid... no, not at all... I feel it was interesting... and I kept looking... My ambition is to be a surgeon..so, a minor surgery like this won't make me shout out in fright... Okay... so... Again, I wonder why my parents are always comparing me with others??? Like my dad's friend's daughter who is 18... who can pay the cost to travel around the world...using her own cash... Okay... First, it's not that I don't want to find my own money or whether I'm too chicken...It's about the LAW... they don't allow ME to work YET... Not until I'm... 17?? Or 18... While the Europeans... they can start working at the age of 16... That is so unfair... I really want to work... So I can buy things I want... Without asking my parents for it... SECOND... I HATE BEING COMPARED WITH OTHERS AS IT WEAKENS MY SPIRIT!!!!! OKAY?!

ps: 463 days more??

Braces - Day 40

2007-08-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

I had enough!!!! Why on earth they have to be so damn...kpc?! This thing nearly drive me crazy... I don't know...I just visited friendster and my mum said...'whatever...disgusting...' She's disgusting for not knowing what's that... She thinks I'm looking for BF's through that thing....GROSS... I don't simply add anybody...okay?! I only add my friends.. people that I know!!! WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT?! If I'm really that disgusting, I surely signed up for something like...ergh... Quit talking about this!!! That's why I want to buy my OWN computer with my OWN money...so that I can do anything I wish....without being controlled by these people!!! ARGH!!!! THEY'RE THE DISGUSTING ONES!!!! And my brother... HOW STUPID... he's a pondan... he pooped in his pants till 11 years old....LAUGH AT THAT!!! THIS IS TRUE!!! I CAN SWEAR!!! He don't even know what friendster is...no wonder... he don't have any friends... Only a boy who always betrayed him and he still keep saying that that boy is still his best friend..!!! How horrible is that? He don't even understand what does bestfriends mean.... Sooooooo STUPID!!!

ps: 464 days more

Braces - Day 39 ~ Unfair...

2007-08-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

I'm telling the truth here... I wonder why..mum said i see the thing that I'm not supposed to see over the net... Beats me... Okay... I'm fed up of being the not-so-good child in my family... Harold is always the best... Nevermind... I'm going to proof it.... Once I can survive on my own... they'll see... I'm gonna beat that kid.... I'm chasing time!!!! This thing must be published before 12 am... it's too late now... Now it will be dated as the next day... ((sigh))

ps:465 days more

Braces - Day 38 ~ 3 day diet

2007-08-21T19:24:00.000+08:00

Hey... I was planning to lose my weight 'lil by 'lil every week...But I just can't!!! Check this out.... I got this from www.faddiet.com... I don't know.. but I'm trying this... If it works, I'm going to do this every week... Hope it helps!!

"3 day diet"
Instructions:
Drink 4 glasses of water or diet soda per day.
You can add herbs, salt, pepper, lemon, vinegar, Worcestershire, soy sauce, mustard & ketchup to your foods.
DAY 1
BREAKFAST
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1/2 Grapefruit or Juice
1 Toast with 1 Tbsp. Peanut Butter
LUNCH
1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Toast
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
DINNER
3 Oz. any lean meat or chicken
1 cup green beans
1 cup carrots
1 apple
1 cup regular vanilla ice cream
DAY 2
BREAKFAST
black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1 Egg
1/2 Banana
1 Toast
LUNCH
1 cup cottage cheese or tuna
8 regular saltine crackers
DINNER
2 beef franks
1 cup broccoli or cabbage
1/2 cup carrots
1/2 banana
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream
DAY 3
BREAKFAST
black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
5 regular saltine crackers
1 oz. cheddar cheese
1 apple
LUNCH
1 boiled egg
1 toast
black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
DINNER
1 cup tuna
1 cup carrots
1 cup cauliflower
1 cup melon
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream

ps: 466 days more

Braces - Day 37

2007-08-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

(yawn...) Tomorrow I'm going to Malaysia Airline's HQ... To do whatever for Harold's ticket... And... I want to ask... what do they mean by... 'Special Assistance'... Ohhhh~ DoTa... I want to play... But no time and to much files later my Sims lag like crap... -.- very slow....-.- I'm very impaient you know... And today I killed Isabella Taylor in the Sims 2 game... (sorry if there's any similarity with real life..) She died of hunger...~ The day supposed to be her wedding and her best friend's... Both of them was pregnant... Now her best friend had given birth to a boy... Isabella's fiancee was furious... and he smashed the vase containing her ash... The spirit also wandered around the house.. Isabella's fiancee moved out from the house.... and the Swindel family... was left there... so..I want to move them to another house....

ps: 467 days more

Braces - Day 36 ~ warcraft...o2jam..trickster..

2007-08-19T20:35:00.001+08:00

Sobs.... How I wish... I'm able to play these games... T_T One week holiday, but bro got extra class... he's gonan face an exam in a week and ??days.. How I wish can go Pulau Perhentian again... The sea water...so blue... but damn salty... I mean.. WAAAAY salty than the ordinary beaches...(NOT MORE SALTY THAN DEAD SEA!!!!) I want go snorkelling again... I want to chase the turtles and take a closer look...(Sounds imposible... hehe) So...where are we going?? I'll write when I know... CORN AND CHEESE!!!!~ My favourite!!!! (U don't understand... do you?? I saw that...LoL)

ps: 468 days to go

Braces - Day 34 - TEST OVER!!!!

2007-08-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

I can't blog for a few days... Test... My second semester test... Finally, today is the last day.. But!!! If I....did not manage to get the marks my parents desired...then it's goodbye to blogging for a loooooooooooong time... I can only post again on November.... Please...I did as well as possible... not like some people...(clears throat) CHEATING!!!! I helped my friend cheat for just a question... I don't know... sometimes I just feel bad about that girl... not saying the answer... This is the only thing I can say for today... So...good luck to anyone who's gonna face a test... whether it's educational... or in life... ((wink))

XOXO,
ELiA

ps: 470 days to go...

Braces - Day 29 ~ No posts..for the last few days...

2007-08-12T23:04:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys... We went out on friday to celebrate my bro's birthday.. And on saturday... I didn't have time to seat on this chair to post...my bro was on it... And finally...today, which is also my b'day... My age increased by one year...It is supposed to be a 'yay..' or a 'sob..' My age increase and my time on Earth decreases... Sometimes..I feel lucky to be here right now...sometimes.. I feel like everything is not meant for me... And today... I'm feeling lucky... I'm lucky to have nice friends... families and relatives... Only.. mum's family..like...my relatives from my mum's side.. I don't think they know... Even though I'm closer to them than my dad's side... It's weird right?? Still, sometimes, writting a post here makes me cry... It could be happy tears, or the true cry... Like.... 'Is it really that bad..???' Haha... My bro's b'day, we celebrated at Friday's... the shrimp was delicious... really... He had lamb steak, my dad had fisherman's platter... mum, some kind of grilled salmon... But me...I had pizza... I asked for it... It's okay too... Even though.. I wished for something....not the food or where I celebrate my b'day... I wish... the person I really loved wished me... but... he don't even know me in the first place.... It's stupid.. Isn't it?? I never seen the real him anyway...

ps: 474 days more...

Braces - Day 26

2007-08-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

477 days...and counting... I'm too lazy too attend the coming Saturday class...STUPID PTA!!!! CURSE THE PERSON WHO SUGGESTED SATURDAY CLASS!!!! I want he/she/them/it to pay back my sleeping time!!! I'm tired okay?!! And I can't skip class because that teacher wants us to do the K.H.B folio....my GOD...!!! HATE HER!!! And tomorrow I've got to use that sewing machine...I'm wondering...Why the hell we have to learn to sew?? And using the sewing machine....is not that our ambition is to become taylors... Gross... (yawn...) life IS boring... This week has got 3 times KH...NO LIBRARY!!! AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! I DON'T FEEL LIKE COMING!!!!! Ok...time to go...(dustballs..)

ps: curse d peeps involved in saturday class idea...

Braces - Day 25 ~ Why..???

2007-08-08T21:50:00.001+08:00

Okay....479 days... For some reason, I dunno why... She's not doing the job... I dunno....Why are people like this?? Right now I can't trust anyone!!! Maybe.... She still like hanging out with the more softer girls, more vain... Arh..nevermind... Now everything is a huge pressure... Test is coming... Parents like..ugh...I just need time...I'm not lazy I'm just bored...Or whatever..... C'mon man!! I spent almost half of my day...from 8am up to 3.10pm with books!!! I'm frustrated!! I can't do things I want...And...this Saturday...there's Saturday class.... Just one day before my b'day... ugh!!! SICKKKKK!!!!!

Braces - Day 24 ~ This weird feeling....

2007-08-07T20:24:00.001+08:00

480 days to go, before I end my days with the braces... Clavinova...I think...I don't want to talk about it again..Well, it's still my best instrument... Recently, I had this feeling... It's like...wakaranai...It's just...plain WEIRD?? It's about the so-called D-E-M-A-N-D-I-N-G EDOINK... She made me feel guilty... She's very nice to me nowadays... She's so sweet...She's not the type that likes to show off like most people I knew...(Definetely not PINK...you're nice,PINK...) But I'm afraid of the huge percentage of posiblilities... that IF I got too close with her, and I'll be HORNY like her...The whole day, she keep talking about g-string, thongs, etc. (Now...you see what I mean..) I'm not irritrated by her talk....OK...After EDOINK.... Mrs.K..Oh..Mrs.K...Why do you want me to do this?? I 'salute' her for being this years MOST HATED TEACHER award... She's like...so rough!! She 'striked' EDOINK at her back a few times just because she talks a little...She talks like...whisper...whisper... And the b**ch...UGH!!! HATE HER!!!!

Braces - Day 23 ~ What' s with my title??

2007-08-06T22:19:00.001+08:00

It's too long too post that way... It's already day 4 of owning CVP- 307... Yamaha is damn great!! My problem is... I want a mp3 to midi converter....But....No such thing...I mean not the one I need... Okay... guess what? Unlucky me lost a memory card...512MB, SanDisk's... It belongs to my phone...My W810i...I'm not that scared but all wonderful Fluffy's pix, my favourite songs...all there....Where is it now??? I don't know!! It might be some where around me, or somewhere I don't know ( LOST IT...)... Hope to find it soon... Hey...wanna know one of my favourite games?? SIMS 2 SEASONS!!!! It's sooo...COOL!!! Maybe I'll put a few screenshots next time... but now...I really have to click that icon again...!!!

LWC - Day 3 / Braces - Day 22

2007-08-05T21:15:00.000+08:00

482 days... And braces off...!! Clavinova...doing it's job...which is...letting me practice... uh-huh...so?? that's it... Yui... this lyric got me going... got this from : http://www.corichan.com/lyrics/albums/yui-cantbuymylove.html#12
HERE IT IS...
dakara ima ai ni yuku sou kimeta n' daPOKETTO no kono kyoku wo kimi ni kikasetaisotto VORYU-MU wo agete tashikamete mita yooh Good-bye daysima kawaru ki ga suru kinou made ni so longkakko yokunai yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara~with youkatahou no IYAFON wo kimi ni watasuyukkuri to nagarekomu kono shunkanumaku ai sete'imasu ka? tama ni mayou kedooh Good-bye daysima kawarihajimeta mune no oku alrightkakko yokunai yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara~with youdekireba kanashii omoi nante shitakunaidemo yatte kuru desho?sono toki egao deYeah hello! my friend nante saieta nara ii noni...onaji uta wo kuchizusamu toki soba ni ite I wishkakko yokunai yasashisa ni aete yokatta yo...Good-bye days

LWC - DaY 1 / Braces - Day 20

2007-08-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

484 to go....CLAVINOVA arrived today.... I started practicing... I'm able to play everythin gthe teacher taught me!!!! YEAH!!! I'll come back next Wednesday.........playing all the songs smoothly...HEHE....ok...today is just this...

Braces - Day 19 ~ Few more days...or tomorrow...

2007-08-02T21:04:00.000+08:00

485 days...I guess... I never lost count... Okay..so, maybe tomorrow I can start playing.... or practicing.. I forgot to post this two days... I was damn busy... History project... And guess what?? KHB and Geography project coming~ Oh my God...Secondary is soooooo~ tough...?? Not for all people... And, according to my observation, this is the longest blog, with the most posts... I've ever had... I've got a few blogs... but I tend to lose the password... forgot the username... forgot the e-mail I used ( Yes..I've got a few..), and the like... School, me, friends... A few days before I wrote this, I was furious with Mrs.K (My classmates... If you know who's Mrs.K...Hush!! I don't want to mention names...), why?? because she changed my seating position, and I've got to strain my eyes to copy whatever the teachers wrote on the board... I'm wearing specs!!! I can't see that well!!! URghhH!!! She really pissed me off that day..but I did not show my temper... Ah, the reason she changed my place?? Because she thought I'm talking to my friends...HELLOWWWW~ They talked to me and I reply them!!! I can't just ignore them, can I??!! Geez... Hope I will be able to play the piano by tomorrow...HOPE~ WISH~ Ok..time to go....

Braces - Day 17 ~ I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

Err...487 more?? Okay..I don't mind!!! Guess what??? YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CLAVINOVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got it!!!! It's coming on Thursday!!! So...my blog visitors...(my friends...etc. thnx for doing so..), my post title will be changed to... Life With Clavinova (LWC & Braces - Day ??&??)....It's the CVP 307...And I'm happy!!! Thank you, daddy...and mummy....I was so happy that my foot trembles.... >.<>

Braces - Day 16 ~ I'd rather DIE....

2007-07-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

488 days before braces is taken off.... Today's HOT topic is; Life sucks to be in this family and I rather DIE than living with these people..... I hate them and I really hate them....I mean it when I said it...(or...type it??) ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Just becaue of damned RM800...They did not buy that f**king piano.... Yeah... I really hate them and I'll make sure they regret refusing to buy that stuff....Just because of that S**T - A**HOLE USELESS STUFF...!!!! I'm thinking of quiting piano class!!! Just quit!!! There's no point in learning any further... I can't remember anything when I got home... and I...I...I can't practice at home!!!!!!!!!!! Cuz I don't have that JERKED instrument....I will never..ever..ever... consider learning music again!!!! I'm tired and sick of the teacher....and I'm tired and sick of everything!!! I just feel like.....go and dig my own grave on my birthday so that they'll regret it!!! Just quit!!!!!!! QUIT!!!!!!!!! Myself is telling me to quit!!!! So....I feel like...saying good-bye to this world.... Which means...KICK THE BUCKET....

Braces - Day 15 ~ sounds....

2007-07-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

489 days and counting... Oh my... I want the Acer Aspire 4310 - 300508.... Only RM1,799!!!! Oh~ But I only have RM1050 in my account and merely hundred on my wallet.... Hey~ B'day coming.... So....I ask for RM500 from parents can or not??? LoL.... I've got to much fancy stuff in my room... Some... I don't even get to use them...so..If anyone interested, please contact me...I'm selling them at a reasonable price... Ok..back to daily life... I'm not one of the few who stood in the canteen watching Jan's bday party... I wait in the car for my bro... It's raining....Okay... school...NOTHING~ no lesson.... it's Saturday...the teachers allow us to play... Happy~ and BORED '-.- So...that's for today.... OUT!!!~

Braces - Day 14 ~ (yawn....) Life is getting really boring...

2007-07-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

So...another 490 days to look better... Yeah..today's subject, LIFE IS REALLY BORING!!!! I can fantasize about a so....Puuuuuuuuuurfect world I always wanted... But I can't change my real life... The real world... I just feel I can't face reality..I'll be running away from it... Everytime there's something new, I'll be the first one to be chickened... Yeah... Laugh about it... Sometimes...it's just..well...nevermind... Listening to YUI's song... Titled LIFE... there's a part saying... "I can change my life...!!!" But I can't... It's not me who decide...So, I do what I'm supposed to do... which is sometimes my decision... (I know you're thinking : What a confusing post...) Yes...not only this post is confusing... If you sit before you sleep every single night, and think what you had done today, everything, the embarassing stuff, the good stuff, the bad....etc. Then... you'll think your life is ridiculous... It's like a merry go round to me... always spinning...non-stop... it will stop when you're the only one left on it... By that time, nothing will happen, everything will so quiet... And you realise....life is over... nothing left to do...NOTHING and absulotely NOTHING.... so, I'm trying to find something new everytime I wake up to start another boring day...Well, not always boring... sometimes, there are something to cherish me... but sometimes...it SUX... that's why... and... so cut this part... It's making me cry...LOL... Okay.. tomorrow is a Saturday... and life is so damn unfair...(or maybe the HM is unfair) there's xtra class... ARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!! And Jan's bday... wonder why people so excited when bday coming near...so happy... but when that person dies.... they'll cry like anything...that's why... life is cruel... it will make you enjoy the early years... and make the rest suffer when it came to the end... She's my best buddy... and I'm not happy bcuz her age increases...shortening her life span...We're not immortal....all living things will die someday...
I don't want anyone I know to die....It will be nice if this moment stays... we will be teenagers all the time... Haha..impossible!! Now... should I come to Saturday school or what...?? Beacuse I've got a few more Elements to add to my history project... Ugh... SICk...nevermind..sick now it's ok... it's going to be 60% of my history mark in the exam in the next two years... 60%!!!!! So...I'm willing.... (come...dun come...come...dun come....*sigh*)

Braces - Day 13 ~ lol

2007-07-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

491 days to go!!! YEAH!!! 4-9-1~~!!! So, yesterday I did not post anything çuz I didn't have time to sit right in front of the PC... My mum is not feeling well, so I got to look after her... It's my responsibility as a daughter, rite?? And today, my dad went for a tooth surgery... Last month, or maybe May... I also went for a surgery... cuz of some abnormal tooth case... I put ice on my cheek so that it won't hurt...or become swollen... and it worked!!! I got the tips from a website... but I forgot the URL... Ok, back to my dad... he can't eat a thing... he rarely talk today... Usually he'll tease me, joke... and 'threaten' me... (joking way)... But today, ~dustballs~ SILENCE...... Kinda nice, no one annoy me, but still... I felt pity for him... he's still my dad anyway... He sleep early today... I think the pain is unbearable to him... *sigh* Hope he feels better tomorrow... Dat's for today...

Braces - Day 11 ~ Yahoo~!!!

2007-07-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

493 days more... hehe... it doesn't hurt at all now... just, a bit uncomfortable because everytime I eat something, some bits will get stuck to the braces... DISGUSTING!!!!! And... today, I went to the prinicipal's office after school, to take my phone, as usual... I found 'My School Rocks' brochure there... I showed Jan, and she looked... and she said...'Ya-oh'... And as I walked out, I heard the principal walking in, back to his office, saying 'Hey, what are you looking at? Are you trying to look into the question papers??' I was like....'Wow, there were question papers??' Hahaha~ I'm not interested in looking at it anyway... If I looked, it's called CHEATING, oh... why am I acting like a goodie-good girl when I'm not??! Nope, still, I'm not interested in the papers!!! HONEST!!!! Haha~ Okay.... OUT!!!

Braces - Day 8 ~ Cry... cry... and EDOINK??

2007-07-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

Ah... early morning...woke up... so damn excited... haih... I thought I'm going to get a Clavinova to practice, or a Guinea Pig, or another Syrian Hamster for Fluffy's mate... but what I got is a Converse bag... and Esprit garments... The Clavinova... I can't get it now, my parents don't want to buy one, they're afraid I might get bored after learning piano for a few months, it's partially my fault. I'm always doing my tasks the half-past six way... So that makes my Dad not convinced... He said I can't guarantee anything by words... yeah... But I'm really interested in piano... Maybe he don't know my dreams to compose songs... I really wish to do so.. but I've got no instrument that I'm able to play with... He said he's going to see whether I'm really interested or not... because that Clavinova cost thousands, he don't want to waste that much money on something which I might got bored off...(wrong grammar?? don't mind that...) Okay, fine, I can understand the pirce is shooting like an india rubber ball...But my teacher says I will need a piano once I started playing songs... I'm in Grade 1, I just begin, don't laugh... I'm currently practising Sandman's Lullaby... but everytime I go for music class, 20 minutes is used for practising the last weeks stuff, that means, only 10 minutes left for new lessons, and I've got to do the theory too... so... 5 minutes for each theory and practical... How am I supposed to go advanced??? Like Grade 2?? I mean, they don't know I already learn the basics in school, I don't dare to tell the teacher... I'm such a chicken... Yeah, still, I hope, really hope, my Dad's mind would link up to mine, maybe he don't understand me... let's just wait and see... ah yes... EDOINK...suddenly EDOINK came up a few minutes ago... well... Okay, this EDOINK seems nice, but when you're a close friend, she will beat you up when she's not satisfied with you... (take a deep breath) Well, EDOINK is a pain on the butt.... for real, but, she's still my classmate, ans she sits right behind me, I just can't ignore her everytime she asks questions... and I regret thereatheing her the other day... It makes her afraid of me... I really hope I could turn back time and talk properly to her, not in a harsh manner. It's too late... but still... she used to be my best friend, until she became a troublesome girl... Ok... braces don't hurt anymore.... still 496 days before it's taken off....I wonder how will I look...

Braces - Day 7 ~ Ooopsieeee....

2007-07-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

OOps... I forgot to post yesterday... By the way.. the badminton competition among us... MY TEAM WON!!!! 36 points..... and the NooK team... 27 ( not sure)... YEAH!!!! XD HahaHa!!! Ok....back to braces... pain not killing... almost can eat like normal!!! HAPPY!!!! but next month it will be tightened again.....will it hurt again?? I don't know.. Haihz... tomorrow is a weekend... and there's a Yamaha exhibiton in MidValley... got special price for Clavinova!!! XD!!! Buy me, please....Dad.....Mum....XD And... ferrets... RM800++ T_T so cute... but expensive... it's expensive bcuz my parents don't want to buy me one... T_T so cuteeeeee...... I missed YUI at music station... T_T so bad luck... when is the repeat?? YUI..YUI...her song so nice... XD...
Ok...time to go...
PS: Braces... 497 days to go!!! (+ torture....)

Braces - Day 5 ~ Piano Class

2007-07-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

Still hurts... but better... ok... 499 days to go!! YEAH!!! School... was ok... lolx... it's supposed to be...rite?? Ok.. so pianolass.... goes on as usual... but I desperately need an instrument to parctice... and my parents don't allow me to buy one!! Well... I've got my own cash... but they just said no.. 'cuz they're afraid I might get bored playing piano and decided to stop, so the instrument will be wasted... I think they don't even know piano is my favourite instrument... I love music... it's food for my soul.. I don't know... I feel like I have to go even though I'm dead tired... well, i lacked of sleep.... and I've got to pay attention to the teachers... whatever they said... usually during maths, 75.8% of the time is spend by the teacher nagging, yelling and slamming the tables ( yes, the noise is almost like a rock concert).... and it's all because of the *censored* girls and *censored* boys... Ah yes... and tomorrow... my friends and I are having a badminton 'competition'... HAHA...Pro VS Nook team... *sorry guys*

Braces - Day 4 ~ Truth or Dare???

2007-07-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

Braces.... hmm... 500 days to go... ok... So... today it wasn't so...painful... I could eat fried rice... Only with my right side... well... I hope tomorrow will not be another 'annoying jaw' day... Ok... for some reason, today, My best buddy and a few classmates (which includes me,my other two best buddy).... were so interested about the 'Truth or Dare?' game... i hate it.. 'cuz what they ask is... ridiculous... (Now, my mother starts nagging...and nagging again).... So... tomorrow, we're going to make some sort of interveiw... so... adios...

Braces - Day 3

2007-07-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

So... I guess... about 501 days more to go??? Well... i've got class today...and the pain is..... annoying... I can't pay attention to whatever the teacher says... well, most of the time I don't pay attention... so?? No difference... Haha... but the pain is a huge difference.... I mean... OUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must bite and never let go.. if I let go and bite again... let me give it a try....tense...tense....when I let go... ok... bite!!! OUUUUUCCCHHH!!! hey, the pain is not that long.... maybe I've got to bite more often...
Watch out guys, I'm starting to bite here.... maybe you'll be my next victim... Nah... just kidding... LOL....Haha... OK... not funny... '-.-
Pain,tense,pain,tense,pain,tense..... got to go... peace out!!!

Braces - Day 2

2007-07-15T18:53:00.000+08:00

Day 2 of braces... another 502 days more to go.... still hurts... but most people on the internet says that it will only hurt for a couple of days... or maybe a week... I don't know... I had the braces on Saturday (14/07/07), which is yesterday... today is Sunday evening... close to night... but my teeth is.. kind of... tensed?? Well, there is a little pain.. but not a 'killing, continuous' pain... but if i tried to bite anything with the two upper front teeth... the pain is unbearable... that's for today...

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