9 more days... Mum's friend, Aunty Emi offered to take us to the airport...?!

Wow... less then ten days... I'm going back!! But.. two months will be.. like soooo...fast. And then, I will be crying again... when the new year begins... sobs... Now, I'll be smilling... and sooo fun... excited.. I just couldn't wait for the day... hah... and... yeah... mum's friend is taking us to the airport...OMG...oh, yeah... tomorrow will be my final day of school... I'll collect my report card.. and then... say "c ya next year" to my friends...

'Good-bye Cruel World' is the only solution...

How to get all the plagues off my life...?? DIE... DEATH... HELL.... DEATH.... DIE.... Yeah... suicide.. something fast and unfelt... that's how i get all teh fuckers off my life...

Miserable... tired... gloomy...I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING!!

there's no lesson anyway... why can't i just stay and sleep...??! and play games..Of course... while waiting for the 3rd of November... I know.. now I'll be happy... and then sad... when it's time to go back here and study.. I'm feeling miserable... tired... drowsy....whatever... i can't look at the skool anymore!!! so... only 3 days... mum's busy anyway... and I must help my mom pack up... etc. etc. i'll try finish the kh project by wednesday... then i'll sleep... and pack up... yes.

Great... I've got no time now, I've got to be on a sacred heart diet...

I'll be meeting my family on the 3rd of November... and today is already the 20th of October... I shouldn't play the pc too much and swim less.... ugh. This sacred heart diet is usually for people who is going for surgery and needs to lose weight, quickly, it promised a 7 day eating plan which will reduce 10-17lbs.(22.0 kg - 37.4kg) I'm on it... which means... no school food. I doubt this is going to work out... but I'm desperate, and I'm willing to try this... It's not that I will lose anything trying this... ;)

Maybe last post... LAzy Meee~

Finally.. we can go back to indonesia... like usual... see my doggies... for two days, then take a train to semarang, my mom's hometown... it's gonna take 4hrs+ by train... that's the fastest way from my hometown to my mom's hometown.. there's no flight. Man... that's longer than the trip from KL to Surabaya...!!! But nevermind... as long as I get to go home... and see the cute pooches... I don't feel like coming to school at all... Even though many of them says I missed lot of fun... I don't think playing at school is cool... Your friends are there... but, the freedom is not. I've to star backpacking by...?? Monday.. on the 29th... or maybe... Thursday.. the 1st.. I can't join the drawing competition held by my group... I'm too lazy anyway... I enough sketches and mangas at home... So, as soon as I did everything I'm supposed to do at school... I'll stay at home.. Yes.. .I don't care about the fun... It's more fun at home anyway... ((wink))

I just don't dare... I don't want to... I'm enough burden to them.

I'm a troublesome kid... Always giving problem to my family... I feel I don't deserve to live... So... any untreated sickness will lead to death, right? So, I'll do that.. I'll pretend I'm okay all the way... That's it.. I'm sorry. Just for a damn ticket I feel heavy... I want to go to my homeland... but my mum wants to go to hers... But, I don't dare to say.

My boring blog... and life. (God exists, and I really feel Him, good for me)

Ah... so... I've been writting, braces day..blabla... and...blabla days to go. But still, I feel like writting, but also... lazy to do so. But nevermind... let me tell you... this damn thing will be taken off maybe at december next year(2008). So, it's already past 12am, so it's already Eid for the Muslims... which is... also my mother's side family. Since moving to this country... I celebrated (even though I'm a Catholic... in a way, like helping them cook, clean the house...etc. except the slaughtering part... I just can't bear... I'll faint after looking at the blood, and hearing the noises the animals make) with them 3 times... and missed 3 times... because school holidays isn't 'cooperating'. How I wish... I'm there... usually, on a day like tomorrow, my mom, me and my cousins.. and relatives, will visit my Grampa's grave. Ah.. maybe I just can't celebrate with them... but at least, I got to see them... God is here... you just have to believe... Proof? Okay... to my calssmates... remember that Moral paper question? Where they put the question as ' Esprit de Corps' ? I was lost... So I kept thinking and asked for help (from God, i did NOT cheat). And I did it... the answer is 'memungut kekayaan'. Wow... and the other one was... I was very sad... Because of the possibilities I can't go back to my homeland this year... but... guess what? God helped me again.. I prayed, and I get to go home... Okay now, I got to sleep ( even though not sleepy)... but before that.. THANK YOU GOD... for being there to help me... ^_^

Dentist appointment. Sad stories.

So.. my third..no, second... appointment, since I fixed the thing on... Oh damn... I haven't put that rubber... Will he notice?? Hope not..hope not... My jaw will feel taut after the braces is tightened... and oh yeah... What colour shall I choose next? I thought transparent will look good... but after few weeks.. It turns yellowish... So... I don't know... Blue?? Eww... Pink?? Too... sweet. Erm... yellow? Disgusting. So?? Gold or silver...? Too shiny. Red? Too bright.. So.....I... I don't know. Green?? Ugh... no... It'll look like as if I've got spinach stuck on my braces... absoulutely disgusting...By the way... I tried blue when I first fixed the braces... so... orange? Looks like as if i hadn't brushed my teeth... black?? Not available... White?? It's good... but... if it turns yellow?? T_T Nevermind... Let's go white... If there's no white?? Then.... umm... purple?? No thanks... uh... i don't know!!! Hope Mandy is online... T_T.
Sad stories...
I... I can't go this year... too bad.

Just a pic...